Hi all!! It feels like I have been offline for a long time. I have just been up to enjoying the summer with my family, and getting used to working a full-time job. I haven’t work full-time for almost 4 years and i have to admit it is a challenge to manage the home, family, work and maintaining my weight loss too. My weight continues to fluctuate from 165-175 I swear and I really need to get my weight to a solid 155 or 160 to be completely satisfied with my body and the way I feel physically. You all may think she only has 10-15 pounds to lose? Stop whining already, but it is a big deal to me because I feel sluggish and tried and not myself. And to add, the clothes are tight and I hate it.

Now you may say time management and I am usually great at that but man!! I feel like there is no time for anything and when I am ready to exercise I am butt tired to the world and then I think about getting up earlier to exercise, but when you have a sick child at times and you are up late caring for them sometimes the strength and motivation runs right out the window. Do any of you moms out there understand? Have any advice?

Right now, I am making myself mentally not stress about the scale and what it says. Because the more I stress the less effective I am with coming up with a plan of action. So, I really need to refocus and think and act. I have all of the tools to lose this extra 10-15lbs, so what is my problem? I guess I am stressed out about my dad in and out of the hospital, My mom being so far away and her heeling from her foot surgery, working long retail hours, managing a home, making sure my child has a social life, and trying to fit as much family time as I can when DH and I are not working so darn hard from week to week. To add, my doctor want me to see a hemotologist to see why my white blood count is low too (boo hoo ). Geez, sometimes I just wish things were back to what they were 2 years about when Dh and I was self employed and I was able to stay at home and think clearly. Things was so much easier then until the mortgage industry took a hit for the worse and it effected our business really bad to we closed our doors and ventured into the 9-5 thing again.

I guess in order to move forward I must let go of the way things was and focus on now and the future and make the best of what’s happening now and be thankful for what we have. right?

What’s going to be my solution? I guess I will be thinking about that today and I will be posting my results tonight or in the morning. I want to continue to inspire others, but now I need inspiration too.

Anyhow, I better run for now. I want to play with my little one before it time for me to go into work tonight. I hope that you all are doing well this week and enjoying the rest of your day.

TTFN (tata for now, hee hee )